Picture me!

Published on 24 January 2021 at 18:32

Trusting GOD through transition

 

  1. That I MAY know HIM! In the power of HIS resurrection... in the fellowship of HIS suffering, being MADE conformable unto HIS death! (Phil 3:10)

 

I have been praying this scripture lately...

Not praying through it, but praying IT. “GOD, how can I know YOU? How can I know YOU?” Asking repeatedly, believing that the answer would come quicker based on how loud I asked... or how often I submitted my request.

 

But that’s not biblical... “Tarrying”, the way that I was taught, is not biblical... “Pray without ceasing.” Is biblical (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18) “Study to show yourself approved Unto God... is biblical (2 Timothy 2:15)

But repeating the same request over and over without breathing or pausing to hear the answer? Not biblical...

 

Tell me, parents, if any of you are impressed by a child that comes into the room, gets into one spot and one position where you are and asks you the same question over and over, without allowing you to answer, how many of you impressed?

 

Asking over and over and over and over without room for answering...

 

I stopped one day and I said, "I feel God near me when I pray. HES close to me, when I share my heart with HIM and  I sing in worship...

 

but when I do this, when I “tarry” what do I really feel?

 

I feel a void.

 

There’s an emptiness that enters into my prayer. I have gone from making my requests known, to chanting...

 

Chanting doesn’t serve a Living GOD because you only need ask once. James talks about “praying the prayer of faith...”

 

Very simply: GOD answers the prayer made in faith, not in repetition.

 

if I repeat it serves ONLY me.

If you and I are conversating you will only ask me to repeat what I am saying if communication was blocked or halted. We repeat when praying because we don’t believe that GOD heard us the first time we said it.

 

GOD is saying, “ our communication lines are fine. I heard you the first time...”

 

Pray the prayer OF faith, because this is how you connect directly with JESUS, (Hebrews 12:2) the author and finisher of OUR faith!

 

GOD wants us to start out with our mustard seed faith and let JESUS, The author who is “the WORD,” which is the book of faith, wrap it all up like HE DID ON THE CROSS!

It is FINISHED!

 

But you have to come to know HIM completely to trust that HE hears you.

 

I thought coming to know CHRIST was immediate at the time of salvation but I was wrong. Salvation is comparable to an introduction. In an introduction, the only information I gather is your name.

 

But I don’t come to KNOW you when you tell me your name.

 

I come to know you as relationship develops and things only develop over time...

 

Things develop in the DARK...

 

I have played around in a darkroom... I have only experimented with shooting and developing black and white images. There was an acid, a base, a fluid called “f-stop” a wash and a finish...

 

I was so excited to learn about the fluids. There were these big basins and tongs... there were light sources and magnifiers...

 

But the most important element in that room was the timer...

 

Because there were people sliding that cylindrical door open and shut over and over. It was like a cheap magic trick gone wrong... one would step in and without hearing a clear pause by the door, another would step out...

 

Fascinating!

 

But that little white timer.

 

I got so good in the darkroom that I could time my whole process plus or minus a minute and I would start at the first basin and just keep sliding my picture through without touching the timer.

 

It became seamless...

 

Seamless...

no creases,

no bends,

no flips.

I EXPECTED that nothing unEXPECTED would ever take place. Because I was standing watch.

I TOOK the picture!

I knew what the FINISHED product was supposed to look like.

 

I was standing guard.

I have the clock...

The picture could never have told me, “hey you up there, I WANT TO BE A SOMETHING OUTSIDE OF WHAT YOU SEE!”

 

From the moment I picked my camera up I discovered that I had a thing for statues...

Statues at sunrise...

Low shutter, wide apeture... stopped all the way down.

And I reveled in processing every piece of film...

And every print...

 

My favorite part of the "process" was watching the image slowly appear in the “process” of developing...

 

But if in that “process” a picture bucked or rebelled, I would always see, because I’m standing over it.

I remain as the Creator, IN the darkroom WITH my print, never leaving the print alone. I am careful to make sure that my sheet comes out better after the process.

it's "processed..."

overexposed or underexposed...

through dodging and burning...

there are are clear terms in the "process" that point to a painful experience.. And the whole process begins with a submerging...

A baptism if you will...

I never leave or forsake my sheet in the "process"

Don’t despise the days of small beginnings... (Zechariah 4:10)

Trust GOD even with the negative. Remember, that every outcome, every portrait, great and small, BEGINS with a tiny little “negative”

 

So while I’m watching the developing process, if I notice a bird appears instead of a fish, I immediately take the print out and question myself. “What happened here?”

I have to throw it out and start the “process” over.

 

Make sure JESUS sees HIS reflection in you after your processing is done. You don’t want HIM to have to start over...

 

See the problem isn’t whether the bird is pretty or not. It can be the most beautiful bird in the world... But if the earth that I lovingly created, called, at that time, for a man, to reach a certain height, live in this nation, work and reach ‘meat lovers’ for the sake of the gospel and I know what I shot with my camera...

 

WHO IS THAT CREATION, that thinks that they are GREAT ENOUGH, to put a crease, a bend or a flip...

WHO ARE YOU TO PLACE THE UNEXPECTED IN THE CREATORS PLAN?

 

(Side note: I started this study at 4 am like most of my studies. I’m so tired, without realizing it I answered “nobody” to that question.)

 

It’s true... “nobody”

 

We are all a part of the process. We are small, but very important pieces. A puzzle can be compromised of 1000 tiny pieces. But if you put the whole puzzle together and you are missing one piece, it kills the entire image.

 

Do you really want to ruin the picture for 999 others without even asking or considering the reason you were created?

How were you designed to connect to other creations?

 

Are you you willing to blur the entire picture for others?

 

Does that make you tolerant?

 

(Side note: this week I was the trashed picture by the way....)

 

I asked GOD a question about me. HE answered it in the only way I would hear, understand and retain the information...

and I cried.

I bucked.

I got angry...

 

I didn’t like the answer and instead of looking UP and asking for help, I looked INto!

 

I got the the answer from UP!

But I looked for wisdom on application from the withIN.

 

As a result, I became very angry and my anger turned INward. This is the definition of INsecurity, because I am placing my SECURITY IN me.

It is an extremely slippery slope because I found the problem IN me and found no solution. The only place to take your problems is to the problem-solver.

 

If you are sick, you don’t go visit a plumber. He is the toilet cleaner, but JESUS, only JESUS is the problem solver!

 

 

This pain, this storm is only a test. When looking for answers don’t look anywhere but UP. GOD has all of the answers that you need.

Get "processed"

 


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